On Pap Smears and Commitment

I had a fun raya holiday mostly being unproductive and NOT studying. Didn't fly back to Kuching as usual but spent time in JB hanging out, eating and watching shows. Well Monday has arrived and I'm feeling the Monday blues.

1. Had a stressful morning trying to convince ladies waiting in the clinic to volunteer for Pap Smears. Not very successful as I only managed to get one patient, and that was with the nurse's help. Well I don't blame them. Imagine a guy coming up to you and asking if you want him to stick a brush up your vag. Yeah, I'm that guy.

2. I chatted with a pal about things. And got me thinking, what's up with my committal avoidance issues? To be honest, I don't know why I have it. I NEED HELP?

But I am still young. I like flirting and being intimate. But I am very vague when it comes to questions like "where are we?". I have never told anyone those three syllables. Perhaps I have boundary issues I need to resolve. Perhaps I am just too affectionate by nature. Maybe I'm afraid things might not work out the way I want them to.

Or it might be simply because I have never made the plunge before. Perhaps I just haven't found the right person for me. Or I have, but it isn't the right time. When I finally commit, it will be wonderful.

To whom it may concern

My confidence has never taken a hit like this, but I'm glad to experience it once. My huge overblown ego needed taming anyway. I wouldn't go all the way to say it was a mistake, and I do not regret making the decisions I have made. Neither should you. It was my mistake for sending out the wrong signals. And it was yours for reading it as over-interest. I like your company and friendship, but it will never work out between us.

I'll make a quick reevaluation of my life. I am happy with my life, I have awesome friends and family, a good future, good health, and youth on my side. The world is my oyster, with new things to learn, experience and enjoy each day. I guess once in a while, I feel the need to share it with someone on a whole new level. You seemed keen, so I naturally picked you over others.

I admit I'm just as confused as you are, and I don't blame you one bit. Some time out would be good. Just continue smiling, our lives are yet to be written, it's gonna be a great tale I'm sure. 

Btw Megan Fox is totally not a guy. Idiot.

Recap: The weekend

Setting the floor on fire with lighter fluid. Ring of fire! Go figure...

It has been an awesome, busy, fun weekend. Not very productive by med school standards, but satisfying nonetheless.

1. Barbie at Ali's place on Friday evening. A nice way to chill after a week of blood, gore and babies. Mano had two of his friends driving down from KL. Both from munchessttter. And apparently they got lost and we had to look for them. Wait for it.................females!  Nah, to be fair, JB is not a very easy place to navigate around.

The Bras (Alvin, Lawrence, Daniel, John) were there too and they did most of the grilling. Then we headed off to Cantina near Ali's place. It was a sports bar and we had real fun singing along to cheesy old songs and playing pool. By the time we left, we were filled with beer, and emptied of dignity!

Night ended with a trip to Cabana by midnight. The place was packed as it was the weekend. And we got in free thanks to an insider. Wooh! I was pretty tired by then, but we danced the night away. Becka claimed to be the most sober so she insisted she rode shotgun to make sure we got home with our lives intact. I think Ali was sober enough to drive anyway.

2. Saturday was a blast as well, a nice slower pace. Woke up real late and met up with a new friend, Karyn. We went off for a drink and chat at Roost as there was time to spare. She was so cute, especially with those teal retro sunnies. We went to my church service later and walked her back to CS. I remembered I had wanted to watch UP! for a while, so Sam and I did just that. Poor Sam haven't had her dinner yet, so she snuck some macaroni into the cinema. The movie was really nice and touching. After that she bought those pair of shoes she had been wanting for a week. I said go for it :)

3. It's now Sunday. I'm gonna sit at home and relax. No schedules or plans. Quality time with myself. It's honouring the Sabbath, no?

Things I want to learn within 1000 days

Life's too short. We only have 30,000 days to live, on average. As a young man about to be thrown into a mundane, albeit well regarded career field, time's a-ticking. So here's my to be reviewed list of things to do within these few years!

1. Learn to ride a motorbike: No, not the tiny annoying mosquito types (Honda, Suzuki etc). But a classic Harley or a Vespa. For some reason, cruising on a bike has this appeal to me. Wind in your face, and the freedom of going off road if needed.

2. Learn to shoot. Like a 9mm revolver. Just for the sake of it. Archery is for sissies (No offense)

3. Learn a martial art. This is long overdue. Just in case I need to protect myself and whoever is with me. 

4. Learn to dance. Street style or salsa. No more stumbling around on 2 left feet.

Hi!

I haven't blogged for ages, perhaps due to lack of time...or laziness. So here I return with a vengeance. 

And fewer words in a post too. I'm thinking lists.

Just a brief glimpse into what's going on with my life at the moment.

My old blog is Misadventures

Ciao!